Is a sign that i'm gifted?

I have ADHD and i very very pionate i love much deeper then most people and feel angrier stronger. i'm very pionate about Paula abdul, Kara Dioguardi ,Rhinos,Giraffes,and Okapis. i feel very connected to them. i have a remarkable long term memory but i have lots of both challenges and gifts. i consider myself twice exceptional . how can i use this gift of pion? i'm 12. i'm homeschooled, is there chance i was either knew kara or paula in a past of life or was a rhino , giraffe or okapi in my past life?? i'm christan but i'm open minded to second lives as animals. i'm biual and i thought it was firsit a burden but now it's a gift